Victory Over Mental Hurdles

Friday, July 28, 2017, was a momentous day for me. After years of self doubt, denial and deflection, I finished 60, 233 words of prose. The working title is : The Academy : A Course in Forgiveness and I couldn’t have thought of a better title. Despite literally flailing, I finished this year’s Camp Nanowrimo 2017 challenge. I couldn’t be more proud of myself.

A first draft is like a first past on a game idea; it’s sloppy, full of holes, kind of stupid in some places and honestly, just garbage…but there is a single gem in said pile of hot mess. Hold on, I’m getting there. The point of the first draft is that it’s birthed into the world, no longer a mass of concepts in your head. Thus [so fancy], it’s ugly and out, ready to be polished, perfected and delivered.

 

These last seven months have been eye opening, humbling and peaceful. As fledgling martial artist, brasilian jiu jitsu bestowed me a mirror to confront my fears and find peace on the mats. As a game designer, I’ve learned the power of asking for help and delivering fun no matter how simplistic it is. As a creator of worlds…well, this is the first time I’ve got up every morning and looked forward to my day. Very few people know this feeling, the melding of peace, pride in one’s craft and joy to offer it to the world, but I’m happy to finally savor its fruit.

So bear with me. I’ll be making updates about the novel as well as the process of the game: A Course In Love. I will probably say some things non book, or game related, but I promise it will be relevant…well, some what. I have an editor and I have a team. Let’s see what kind of ruckus can be gobbled together.

I’d like to return to November 22, 2016, where I was directionless and close to throwing in the towel and getting a real job. Despite my frustration, this email crept through and added the jolt I needed. All in all, Eric was right. Bravo, Eric. Bravo.

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Hi,

Glad you like Stardew : )

How did I stick with the project? I really, really wanted to be successful and see my idea turn into reality. That desire consumed my entire life.

I adopted a mentality of complete faith and confidence in myself. I believed that I was special and would absolutely succeed were countless others have failed. I would say things to those around me, like… “You should have faith in me, I am absolutely going to succeed”…maybe people thought I was ridiculous, but it worked out.. the blind faith helped me stay focused when the odds were against me.

I think 50% of being a solo developer is overcoming the mental hurdles.

Thanks for the message

-Eric

 

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